July was a difficult month for me. Nothing terrible happened. I just felt off. I am coming to terms with what I think triggered this, and how I can stop it from happening again.
So basically, I rocked June’s socks off. I smashed the gym, went to pilates classes, my food was super healthy whole plant based foods, and I didn’t drink any alcohol. I was more energetic, high on life, and just generally kicking ass.
On 30th June, I decided to “treat” (?) myself and I had some Indian Takeaway, a big Doughnut from Doughnut Time and had some drinks after work. Seems harmless, but this one day threw off my entire month. After June 30, I found it harder to get back into a good routine and eating healthy took a backseat. It didn’t help that I was also away for work and other commitments on weekends so it was hard to reset myself and get back on track.
I’m also coming to realise that I have a pretty ‘addictive personality’. Meaning, when I want something to try something, and I do, I can get addicted really quickly. This is one of the main reasons why I have never dabbled much in drugs or smoking – I know that I could have ended up in trouble with these sorts of habits. However, it works really well when I get addicted to things good for me – like exercise, eating well, veganism, etc.
But I have noticed that one of my main triggers seems to be drinking alcohol. I don’t binge drink anymore – I certainly did in my late teens and early twenties, which resulted in doing things that weren’t awful – but hey, they weren’t great either. Whenever I do drink alcohol, I never feel good afterwards. Even if I just have one or two standard drinks, it results in feeling not so great the next day. I also tend to eat more food that I wouldn’t normally, and it dehydrates me. Alcohol also happens to be a major depressant, and as someone who struggles with anxiety and depression, it seems really stupid to keep going with this.
I don’t know why, but I feel reluctant to stop drinking all together, which is silly. I’d love to hear your stories if you have struggled with something similar. If you don’t feel comfortable commenting, email me at firstname.lastname@example.org or direct message me on my Instagram.
I also wanted to add a little goals section to these personal posts, so here are my goals for August! Nothing major, just a few small goals I think I can achieve. I will try to check in each month with the prior month’s goal achievements and each new month’s goal setting.
- Sign up to 30 Days KX Pilates
- Speed Clean every night
- Make time to meditate for 15 minutes a day
Here’s to a productive August! How was your July?